Crossroads and Cobwebs

Here I come again. Travelled a full 360 degree circle and once again found myself at the same point...at the same crossroad where I was a year or two ago...or was it 5 years ago?? 7 ?? Thrash !!! Thrash all crossroads !! It's a cobweb this time. The more I struggle to free myself , the more they try to strangulate me.

I escape.

Somewhere down the lane I seem to have gone the Hansel and Gretel way- lost track while following bread- crumb trails. But was it meant to be this way?? I travelled through the longest and supposedly the safest way by the woods. Kept close to the creeks... and finally arrived here. Smile not! I'm no Little Red Riding Hood, and I met no prying wolf.
But then, is this the same kingdom that beckoned me throughout my childhood? If so, where is my castle then? Where are the folks? The kinsmen? The king? The queen? The horses? The carriages? where is my prince??

As I near my 4th crossroad, I tell you this part of Alice in Wonderland's story-

'Cheshire puss', she began, rather timidly, as she did not at all know whether it would like the name. However it only grinned a little wider. 'Come, it's pleased so far', thought Alice and she went on.
' Would you tell me please, which way I ought to go from here?'
'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to', said the cat.
' I don't much care where', said Alice.
'Then it doesn't matter which way you go', said the cat.
' So long as I get somewhere.' Alice added as an explanation.
'Oh you're sure to do that', said the cheshire cat, ' if you only walk long enough'.

Well, I walked long enough. It took me full 20 years ... But i've realized- we are all Alices, we are all Hansels and Gretels. It's easy to pretend and declare that everything is going on perfectly fine, but it's quite a task you know, to step out of your fairy tale boots, dust the childish fantasies off your coat, and prepare yourself for the trek. I didn't make much sense to you, did i? Or may I please put it in a more ressuring way?- I made some sense, did I not?

Told you ! It's a cobweb. A complex web. I too have woven one for myself. And so have you. Infact each one of us has.